Jean and Dawn's Food and Life

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2010-02-08T04:08:00.000-08:00

this will juz be another unread post i guess... haix... things are really bad now... u say u love me... but...? things tat u do dun show me u love me so much... juz becoz we are going to break... doesn't mean u can look for HER... this shows u dun even have me in ur mind even at the last moments... u dun remember me telling u dun call her...? or u just dun wanna bother bout wad i say... i really dun care who the heck SHE is and how important SHE is to u... coz we are talking bout NOW!!! the one tat will be with u for the next 80yrs... is me not HER!!! the one tat has to ruah over after work no matter tired or not is me not HER!!! i guess u have nv put urself into my shoes... and think bout how u will feel if its the other way round... i dun like the feeling of not having ur whole heart... I REALLY DUN LIKE IT!!! and even if u called HER or msged HER... u hide it from me... i dun deserve to noe bout it...? u BLUFFED me... how can i trust u fully now...? are u going to change...? quit smoking...? find a job...? i duno... i really duno... if u ask me how i feel... i will say u will nv change ba... not for anyone even the one u love... but only for urself... i duno wad to do le... i dun wanna leave u... but things are not improving for so long le... i fear tat u will do stupid things... i fear tat i cant see u anymore... i dun wan u to go out and hurt others... and the most i dun wan u to go back to HER... even ur last msg tat i saw... i only care for u... but SHE showed u wad is love... maybe i'm juz too childish... maybe i get jealous too much... but this is me... and if u love me... u will not bring a thing tat i HATE so much so close to me... SHE is being a pain in the neck for me... i fear tat i will lose u becoz u still have her in ur heart... i noe... i always noe... u do compare me with HER... i'm juz nobody... its sad... i gave in too much... and u are use to it now... this isn't the way for a boy to treat a girl... even how unhappy the boy is with the gals family... but becoz of the gal he loved... things wun be the same... i duno how u will react after u read this... but i hope... u understand me... i juz want a simple relationship... but it has now become so complicated...

looking for it...

2010-02-05T04:27:00.000-08:00

baby... i dun think u read this ba... but i noe someday u will... i dun mean to throw tantrum at u... juz tat i'm very very sleepy... i hope baby noe i need some time on my own too... haix...

What Should I Do...?

2010-01-24T04:28:00.000-08:00

baby says nobody is perfect... mommy says u are not good enuff... i'm totally tired of this thing already... i ain't perfect either... and if wanna compare i'm not good enuff for baby too... its real hard to balance both sides... now... both sides hate each other... and me...? i wanna make both sides happy... but wad can i do...? i wanna be with baby... and i dun want mommy to keep nagging... feel like dying now... how good will it be if i can be like other gals from other family... i can say i'm good enuff not to juz go anywhere without saying... but how can i say to u... the more u tie me down the more i wanna rebel... please somebody juz get me outta this freaking life... i cant juz ignore... coz this is a everyday thing tat i'm facing... haix... SIANXXXXXX!!!!

1 year & 4 months!!!

2010-01-14T03:25:00.000-08:00

its 1 yr and 4 months with my notty boy le... keke... Though we did not spend today together... i still love u... i love u even more compare to the 1st month being togerther... i hope baby is not tired of me and my nonsense... i hope we can find a way outta this nonsense country which baby always dun like... no matter where u go... i'll try to follow... give me a little more time... and i'm totally urs... keke... muackz... baby... i love u... we will go on and on and on forever...

[Dear]

The future

2009-11-12T09:50:00.000-08:00

Its almost 2am now and am so harressed by Dear to blog. And... I think this is the best way that i can have her hear me say what i really wanted to...

$7 an hour as a part time cook since ORD from the army in mid September seemed a real boring job for me. Misc en place(preparations) for service, smoke, grab some waffles, french toast or whatever i felt like eatting for that moment and have my 'snack'.

New order! 1 Papilotte! 1 Burly Benedict! 1 Pancake party! The abovyer shouts. Do up the scrambled, lay it on the smoked salmon, put the halfed english muffin, boiled russet potato, caramelised onion, grill the toast and corned wagyu beef.

And the day continues like that.

Am really getting bored of such life, getting home sticky and still smelling of the caramelised onions and smoked salmon. Morever, at such low pay.

Have met up with this ang moh guy, Cooper whos the sales director of sweet streets cake like on monday where we had a meeting about possibalities of me importing the cake and sell them direct to resturants, catering and hopefully the airlines where i could make some money out of.
But a slice of cheese cake, the size 3/4 of a cigarette box at US$1.05 before shipping. After mark up? Simpily $4 and resturuants mark up is 300%! $12 for a damed slice of cheese cake?

Gave up the idea and thought of all ways to make me rich. At least rich enough to spend 2k a month to go Hong kong skirmish, marry dear, buy a house maybe?

And now, left with no more idea.

Cake seemed to be a great industry! With the profit margin going as high as 500% and just by quality cakes would actually attract customers. And now, searching for a decent mixer... Maybe a Kenwood? Perhaps a KitchenAid? Or a Mayer?

The cakes i made were just lousy. Maybe i lack the knowledge of baking. Perhaps some books from some culinary institutions, some decent ingredients and some propper equipments may let me kick start my adventure of a lifetime?

Lets see...

Misses Hong Kong!!!

2009-11-02T06:39:00.000-08:00

Time flies... our hong kong trip is over so fast... >.< and my notty baby haven posted his post out... roar... looking forward to next years trip... keke... now is to earn MONEY!!! keke... love u baby... blog again...

[Dear]

2 days more to Hong Kong...

2009-10-14T05:50:00.000-07:00

hee... 2 more days to go... yippy... going hong kong with my baby... 2nd time there but 1st time without my family... keke... baby u are my one and only... i can see the future... keke... muackz...

[Dear]

21 already!!!

2009-10-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

juz came back from chalet... keke... so happy... with baby around somemore... make me more happy... hee... wen over to baby's place on friday after going to the ulu beauty world to do my measurements for my uniform... was hoping tat i can stay over... and fortunatly mommy did allowed... lolx... first time in my life... XD... so happy nor... so do up the fruit tarts and cream puff with baby... den wen to zzz le... den the next morning suppose to go back home first and get my bag den go with mommy they all the aranda de... but baby still need help... things are no fully prepared yet... so i stayed on... finally mommy say she will help me bring my bag down... and we will meet there... so as planned... popo sent us out at 3pm... wen to collect my cake first den wen over to aranda le... hee... denprepared everything... soon my relatives came... we ate... den sang bday song and cut cake le... den off they wen... after tat bath den zzz le... den the next day webster came back for breakfast with us... den off we wen to wild wild wet!!! have a great time there nor... love the lazy river and wave pool... so sorry baby... forced baby up to the cycling thingy... >.<... will nv go up there again le... its scarier den i tot... T-T... den after tat we wen for Kbox with my family... den ah mei and daddy wen home le... coz mei got PSLE today... i fall asleep not long after we reach the room... mommy borrowed baby's com to watch her show... XD... anyway this morning check out le... popo came to fetch us... den sent mommy to the MRT den i followed baby home... coz need to go with baby to orchard to send his knive and phones for repairs... den after tat we headed home bout 7 plus... coz baby need to go JB with his sis... den now i here blogging nor... keke... okays ba... looking forward to HK... keke... 4 days to go... yippy... okays stop here le... tatax... nite nite...

[Dear]

so tired...

2009-10-08T03:27:00.000-07:00

miss my baby nor... today and tml cannot see him... but will be seeing him from sat to monday... keke... yippy... for my 21st bday party... keke... 21 coming le... haix... so many things to take responsible of le... ~>.<~... anyway today wen to work tat time heard from emilia... Jam's door kena paint... lolx... loan shark pour wrong door... XD... like tat oso good... relative like to steal... den she like nv do anything to help 1... orpi...! okays nar... will blog again since baby will be blogging too... keke... going for dinner lu... tatax...

[Dear]

so happy...

2009-10-02T03:09:00.000-07:00

yeah... only left a week to go for my bday party... and 2 more weeks to go for our hong kong trip... keke... looking forward... hee... love u baby...

[Dear]

>.<

2009-09-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

u said u love me... i'm the only gal... so u are mine... and mine only... i'm not sharing u with anyone...

[Dear]

Army open house!

2009-09-07T07:52:00.000-07:00

hee... wen for army open ohouse with my lovely baby... both in black... and both in ACU pants... XD... our couple uniform... XD... sorry baby... nv let u go play live rounds... >.<... u noe ur dear dun like de... T-T... anyway... enjoyed today... hee... muackz...

[Dear]

11th months le...

2009-08-17T04:02:00.000-07:00

love u baby... 11th mths le... hee... love the tom yam soup u cook ytd... doesn't taste like a last min soup... hee... my clever baby...

[Dear]

My Baby...

2009-06-26T03:42:00.000-07:00

To my baby...
Am i juz thinking too much...? or its really super busy... baby haven been messaging me lately... >.<... y is it like tat... T-T... tell me...

[Dear]

Love You!!!

2009-06-22T04:08:00.001-07:00

hee... have nothing to do... so came to blog on our blog... =P...
i'm tired and hungry now... some more medical check up starting...
this time round all galz... they are really dumb dumb de nor... duno how to follow instructions... XD
miss my baby... muackz...

[Dear]